WELL, WELL, WELL!

There are things in life that are better unseen, untouched, unsaid and certainly not re-visited. Case in point:

Being a member of facebook, I do what almost every other member does; I search for old friends. So, one day I decided to start with some of my old childhood classmates and began to search. One girl stood out in my mind as a good place to start. I found someone who fit the criteria and I sent her a message to see if in fact, it was the same person I had gone to school with; she was.

Her reply to my message was: “Well, well, well”! and ended with inviting me to meet her for coffee to “catch up”. That was quite a few months ago, maybe even a year or so. I am yet to take her up on the invitation.

She is not living in Louisville where we went to school together, but in my neighborhood here in Indiana. Although in some of the same classes, we had not run in the same crowd with the exception that she was the girlfriend of the boy who shortly thereafter fathered my first boy child (and a girl child some years later while married to his second wife)! In fact, it was through said girlfriend that I had met him. Well, well, well!

I have hesitated to re-establish contact with her since I am not sure what kind of situation I would be getting myself back into nor do I know what impressions and/or grudges she carries from years past since her response to my message seemed tinged with some sarcasm. I am not a coward; I just know that there are things better left alone. But, I do know where she is in case I change my mind.

Why did I bother to contact her in the first place? Morbid curiosity? Just to see if I could do it? To make sure she was well and happy? Who knows?

I have also contacted others out of my past with the same trepidation and left with the same feeling of “don’t go there” and “my God, what kind of an impression of myself was left with these people”? I’ll not lose any sleep over it since I gave it my best shot at the time and I certainly have nothing to hide.

But one thing surely was reaffirmed: No matter where you go, it’s a very small world!